Sandy Hook shooting: Parents of Jessica Rekos speak about the moment they found out she was dead

By Rachel Quigley

PUBLISHED: 15:29 EST, 17 December 2012 | UPDATED: 17:09 EST, 17 December 2012

They were so overwhelmed with grief after hearing of their six-year-old daughter's death, all they could think to do was crawl into the bed she had left just hours before.

Jessica Rekos' parents Richard and Krista are openly talking about the precious daughter they lost and how special she was before she was gunned down at Sandy Hook Elementary School on Friday.

'She was a ball of fire, she ruled the roost,' her mother said. 'We will talk about her every day, we will live for her. We will make sure her brother knows what an amazing person she was.'

Richard added: 'She was our little CEO, she was the boss.'

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Jessica Rekos' parents: Richard and Krista are openly talking about the precious daughter they lost and how special she was before she was gunned down at her elementary school on Friday

Jessica Rekos' parents: Richard and Krista are openly talking about the precious daughter they lost and how special she was before she was gunned down at her elementary school on Friday

The couple spoke to ABC about wanting to keep the memory of Jessica alive despite their pain, revealing she loved horseback riding and writing. She was going to get a pair of cowboy boots for Christmas.

Distraught: The couple spoke to ABC about wanting to keep the memory of Jessica alive despite their pain, revealing she loved horseback riding and writing

The couple spoke to ABC about wanting to keep the memory of Jessica alive despite their pain, revealing she loved horseback riding and writing. She was going to get a pair of cowboy boots for Christmas.

Richard Rekos said of his daughter Jessica: 'She was our little CEO, she was the boss'

Richard Rekos said of his daughter Jessica: 'She was our little CEO, she was the boss'

Speaking about the moment they found out she was dead, Richard said: 'We couldn't get a straight answer. There's so much panic and confusion when that announcement was made, the life was just sucked out of everyone in the room.

'And you know, I just point-blank found a state trooper and said, "Are you telling me that standing here as a parent that my daughter is gone?" And he said, "Yes".'

Though they were asked to stay and identify their daughter's body, they left in disbelief and went home, climbing into her bed so they could feel close to her. They didn't leave until 1am.

At that point a police officer came to the house to confirm Jessica was dead.

'It just confirmed the nightmare, it's not real,' Krista Rekos said. 'It's still not real that my little girl who's so full of life and wants a horse so badly, and who was going to get cowboy boots for Christmas, isn't coming home.'

When she received the call on Friday that Sandy Hook Elementary School was on lock down, Krista said she ran through the town she grew up in, a town she thought was the safest place for her daughter to grow up.

'I was running, and I kept thinking, "I'm coming for you honey, I'm coming".

Breaking down in tears she added: 'I knew exactly what she was wearing, and I was hoping to see her little ponytail run around the corner, and her jacket and her black glittery Uggs that she had on that morning.'

Krista said: 'This morning I found a little journal, and it was exactly what I needed, because it says,

Mom Krista said: 'This morning I found a little journal, and it was exactly what I needed, because it says, "I love you so much momma, love Jessica"'

Grief: Though they were asked to stay and identify their daughter's body, they left in disbelief and went home, climbing into her bed so they could feel close to Jessica

Grief: Though they were asked to stay and identify their daughter's body, they left in disbelief and went home, climbing into her bed so they could feel close to Jessica

The six-year-old with the big heart had been writing in a journal, something her mom was not aware of but found in the days after her death.

'This morning I found a little journal, and it was exactly what I needed, because it says, "I love you so much momma, love Jessica", her mother said.

'It was like she was telling me she was watching us and she knows how hard this must be for us, and she wants us to know she loved us, and she knows how much she was loved.'


By Staff 12/17/2012 09:09:00